Audrey's Meraki

Many times did I discern amidst the tangle of feelings the resonation from the ruptures which kept my heart evolving This acquiring sagacity through the journey I rove The genesis of which was the idea of love. I've never been so broken I've never been so whole embracing and encountering feelings my heart lost it's power and control. In it's own emptiness vast joy it finds. in giving inexplicably, this stubborn heart of mine. To pledge and forfeit every bit of my own in every possible way, with sacrifices unknown. To give infinitely,  expecting nothing in return. reminiscing these deeds knowing they would bid adeiu and turn Even in this emotion of dark A pentrated ray will ignite the spark Someday, someone to love inspite of all This idea of love enthralls. - Audrey. C

Amidst of chaos, living in this world. A bewildered soul lost on its own. Diving and scuffling for tiny moments. To return faded smiles, wiped and gone. The thoughts running in and around. Answers to which were never found. A passing thought that hovers again. Is it worth or all over in vain? Everything that has ever lived. Lived for love and nothing else. The truth is uncomplicatedly simple. Yet wrapped in perplexed suspense! Darling, listen to the whisper, Your caged heart mumbles. Everything is temporary but love. Love outlives us all in a shove! - Audrey. C

Two years ago when I started in this college. Unsure and doubting the journey I had to acknowledge. It began on the very first day when we had our conversation. She walked in to give her piece of mind which needed a lot of concentration. Apart from the formal assemblies and events, I did not really have an actual interaction. I knew, though she did not talk much, she led the most intelligent discussions. She spoke in her own style and with an aura incomparable. The reason why I admired her was not so simply explainable. She is indeed a beautiful soul with the humblest heart. Always inspiring to dare with her utmost patience and care. To shine amongst many and genuinely be rare. She urges to take the road less travelled. Like Robert Frost she envisions it can make a difference. Yet not letting us overlook the power of prayers. As she believes success and almighty go in coherence. Within a short span, the initial year came to an end. The second year awaited with sur...

I failed to understand the unspoken. Whether I was unloved or broken. The feelings I always buried within I secretly desired someone to break in. Loving never guarantees its return in equal measure. This thought resided as my very own treasure. You broke this perception into pieces hard to find. A different insight blossomed into my mind! The more I knew you, The more I was astound. You left me thinking and almost spellbound! You showed me your flaws. Yet, I chose to stay. The moment I realised. It was hard to walk away. Our souls caught fire  Even before our eyes could meet. Who knew that, Both hearts would tune to the same beat! I was in Love with the all of you. In so less time which is hard to believe. Darling, your love has cast a spell! It seems like forever in which I could dwell. I have found my content. In between your embrace. Amidst your tender kisses, Pure bliss my heart traced. I found a reason why it feels so right. From my soul to ...

Have you ever felt bruised and worried. The days passing by so dull and your happiness buried. Everything around you seems so sore. This unusual feelings stayed, making you not want this kind of life anymore. The pain, the struggle, the worries and the fear. You swept up all, everything in a beautiful prayer. The only time you feel loved and that you are heard. But your busy mind couldn’t really comprehend Gods word. Thoughts weird and wild, troubled you each time. The reason you could not acknowledge anytime. Deep down, secretly you knew you hated this relentless life. And the monotony it followed in its struggle and strife. Success and fame were things in which bliss you couldn’t find. This was Gods magic wand working on your mind. You had it foreknowledged your life wasn’t ordinary. Because you loved preaching Gods word in way extraordinary. God has heard your pain and troubles so fine. The reason why he chose you over everyone in the out...

What I always desired I hesitated to say aloud. I thought you'd know the affection endowed. Alas! It just stayed in my heart as a forbidden rhyme. You brushed it off so casually reasoning you'd no time ! The years that have traced my age till now. Every time I chose you amongst thousands in a row ! Because I believed your soul most real and pristine. Just never knew it was an unreal thought of mine. The passing nights had begun to take indefiant curves. These feelings I perceived in all of my nerves. The fairytale dream I tenderly wove in history. Got ripped apart and happiness again was a mystery ! All the trust I engraved in you for a decade of years. Shattered into bits that thoroughly pierced. My heart's dreadfully broken; we'd come so long. It was as if God knew my name but pronounced it wrong ! My soul is withering in agony; I'm in tragic. I never in the wildest anticipated your Love to be toxic ! I was desperate to find my peace in your...

I heard them say, "Oh you'll just be a teacher anyway." You will laugh and play your day away. You'll be free by 3 and have your summers off. I could not reply to all these laughs and mocks. Saddened fervently, I still entered the B.ed class. My mind full of doubts and chaos. I pondered over again on my decision. "Is it right or not ?" was the biggest illusion! While i sat there, staring blankly at her face. She at once knew I was in a gruelling race. She smiled and said, Money is not your motivation. It's the love for what you do and your dedication. You will not just teach to read and write. But to question and explore, shape minds and lives. While others sit 24*7 in front of a screen. You will be planting seeds of motivation that'll be forever evergreen ! You'll witness true bliss in imparting knowledge with grace. To help the world learn and be a better place! For being a teacher doesn't come in a book. It comes fr...