Audrey's Meraki

I’m troubled every hour  I just can’t keep sane You know I’m an over thinker  Would you still want to blame? In search of a glint of hope  Days and years have passed  Some fleeting happy moments  That were bound to never last I may sometimes act hurt  Continuingly sounding screed  But I’m hiding so many wounds  That do not anymore bleed The marks left behind  Are still ugly and fierce If you come too close Your heart they’d pierce You see this stubbornness  That I constantly do wear It may seem idiocy to you  But it shields my soul bare I’m stuck and forbidden  Craving for a crumb of love  That’d stay like a constant  Like the starlit sky above! - Audrey. C

These overpowering thoughts  I’m trying hard to seal  Perhaps it’s easier to smile  Than show what you feel  Inexplicably incessantly existing  Strangest feelings unknown That emerge all at once  Whenever I’m left on my own With every emerging thought  It gets hard to breathe  Perhaps it’s easier to not live  Than let these emotions seethe I keep thinking until when  Thinking doesn’t make sense  It’s destroying me slowly  At my only peace’s expense  Perhaps it’s easier to pretend And act like I’m all fine  Than reveal the unhealed wounds  I’ve from someone I called mine I’ve become unbelievably fragile  Yet, I don’t want anyone to know  I only desire to blandly vanish  And none would even notice me go! - Audrey. C