Perhaps

These overpowering thoughts 

I’m trying hard to seal 

Perhaps it’s easier to smile 

Than show what you feel 

Inexplicably incessantly existing 

Strangest feelings unknown

That emerge all at once 

Whenever I’m left on my own

With every emerging thought 

It gets hard to breathe 

Perhaps it’s easier to not live 

Than let these emotions seethe

I keep thinking until when 

Thinking doesn’t make sense 

It’s destroying me slowly 

At my only peace’s expense 

Perhaps it’s easier to pretend

And act like I’m all fine 

Than reveal the unhealed wounds 

I’ve from someone I called mine

I’ve become unbelievably fragile 

Yet, I don’t want anyone to know 

I only desire to blandly vanish 

And none would even notice me go!

- Audrey. C