Audrey's Meraki

Do you still think of us When you go to places we’ve been Feel the love we left there  And happiness we felt within Do you still think of us While the radio plays our song Recall how we sang the lyrics  While you drove along Do you still think of us When you watch movies we’ve seen  Sigh at the scenes we cried together  Arguing at what they’d mean Do you still think of us Look at our silly pictures Relive those precious moments  While your heart ruptures  Do you still think of us Remember all the stupid fights  Then conversing on forgiving At 2:00 am in the midnight! Do you still think of us When the nights get colder Reminisce the way we cuddled Laying my head on your shoulder Do you still think of us While you’re low and alone  Remind yourself you’re loved The way I would’ve done Do you still think of us Beyond the wrath of unspoken fears Then dive deep inside your heart...

You stained me forever  In a deeper shade of love  Then pushed me away  With a subtle delicate shove  I got used to being The only one you loved I confided blindly  In the way you vowed  You left to never return I couldn’t ask any why  The love gradually faded  Without waving the last goodbye  I’m lost and withering  With each passing night  And forgetting you now Seems to be the hardest fight I solely prefer the world  Immersed deep in my head Where our fairytale exists  With the love almost dead Imprisoned in an illusion  Of my consciousness  On the debt of your love I’m in a terrifying mess This depth of raw emotion  That none can greet Holding a gaze so unwavering  That is hard to meet Lost in dark corners of my mind  Exhausted by the bitter pain I disguise it with a constant smile Writhing in silence but not complain...

She’s the ink that never fades Running through her veins That fills in blank pages  And remarkably forever stains She writes paragraphs that rhyme On hope, love and laughter  And about those heartless many To whom she did not matter Penning down poetries Made both of love and hate Crafted with sheer emotions  Of people she once met Thousands memories of each That are carved on her heart Whether they stayed for a day Or for years and had to part She writes to hoard feelings  All kinds, bitter and sweet  So whilst she’s left lonely She can revisit and greet These poems are a home In which her soul finds the light To wrestle those demons That torment her might  For what it’s worth Will she always argue  Hoping someone someday  Will write about her too!  - Audrey. C

When the cold breeze blows And darkness surrounds In the empty corners Your thoughts embrace around  Can you teach me? To keep your thoughts away And fight the struggle  To answer questions I weigh I’ve heard people wish  on a faraway star I too believed in the myth  For you, I was on a war Can you teach me? To not wish for you  On every falling star Underneath the sky of blue All I wanted love to mean Was a thousand versions of you You left and taught me Idea of love isn’t meant to be true Can you teach me? To not love all of you  And find those scattered pieces Of my heart that you threw Come, teach me now To unlearn things that you taught To not feel, feelings you gave And forget memories you brought  Teach me everything, Till all my sorrow is gone To free my captive heart So you won’t be my last resort!  - Audrey. C