‘Un’feeling

I don’t feel the way I used to,

The skies are more grey than blue.

I can’t see the sun shining

Darker clouds have gathered through.

This heart feels the emptiness 

With thoughts in brutal mess.

The sting of anxiety  

I still cannot suppress.

I don’t feel the way I used to,

My peace has gone with you.

I crave for belonging

These feelings can’t bid adieu.

The uneasy loneliness 

Is killing me with a steady pace. 

Even amongst a bunch of people

Only abandonment I do trace.

I don’t feel the way I used to,

My heart is burning through.

Every last piece that’s left,

In a rapid fierce spew.

-Audrey. C