Agony

I never dreamt in my wildest 

How grievously I would rue 

On feelings I confided in

Which were dreadfully deceptive 

Yet, I held tight onto them 

Until I couldn’t sustain my grip

Little did I know,

My feelings would be ripped!

The pain fiercely slaughtered 

Every feeling that had grown 

My heart vigorously cracked

I could feel it in my bones!

My lungs deeply ached

Screamed and silently wept

Because it was the only piece

Of my heart, that was left!

Broken and bleeding 

It stained my soul 

I could still breathe,

But will never be whole!

I was living a beautiful lie,

“Maybe I could be loved” 

Inspite of the why’s,

My mind had never approved

The heart shivers now

at the very thought of love

I feel buried alive,

In an abandoned grave!

Broken heart and silent tears

Of which life is made up perhaps

I’m drowned in this pain

With an hypnotic collapse!

-Audrey. C