Audrey's Meraki

The red at dawn has awakened  My wretched soul still weary  I force a smile on my face Hiding every ugly scar merely  I deeply conceal the emotions Whose burden I can no longer bear A heartache which is incurable It’s a truth that’s blatantly there  Thoroughly fatigued by the dread Which stubbornly sits within  The battle is to surrender  But to hurt you, would be a sin The subtle content you show  When you look at my smile  Infuses the only will to live Making all sorrow worthwhile  To never show you my scars Is a secret I cautiously hide  So worry leaves your thought Believing the grin perfectly wide Everything that’s now left  Is loneliness and none  A tiny hope lives by because  You are all and only I own Your existence in my life  Is a solemn wish unknown As the purpose to survive  Would be worthless alone - Audrey. C

The tension builds up When you match my glare  I feel the adrenaline  Rushing through the rare I don’t need to converse  Your admiration speaks The spark is unarguably pure  Evident through my rosy cheeks  I let you invade  With your ardent gaze Reckon it to be dangerous  Immersing in your presence  The addiction is real That lies in your eye I lose myself to you  C’mon, I cannot just lie You blur everything around  The raw chemistry is insane It lits continual sparks Now I can’t myself refrain  I see you so close  I’m forgetting how to breathe  My pulse is acting silly  With the butterflies stuck beneath You leave your fragrance  I don’t need to figure out how  You just make me feel alive  That’s what matters now!  - Audrey. C

Any place that she would go She would fill it with laughter The one that blooms flowers And a vibe you’d chase after  She could fade out your greys Painting them in all colours new Though her own world darkened  That nobody even knew She’d love you in ways unknown With depth you have never imagined That could be talked in metaphors And undying hope would’ve aligned If you ever asked what she loved It would only make you smile She religiously bred the idea Of making life around worthwhile  If her only presence in your life  Be a tiny cause of your defeat She’d vanish without you knowing And you would accuse her of conceit You would never know what she feels You would maybe not even ask You will never understand the hiding  That comfortably sits behind her mask She’d leave without a reason To save you from the terrible mess You’d believe you were just fooled  And she’d choose being called heartless  - Audrey. C