Audrey's Meraki

The pulse has ceased  On a unusual pace Staring at the wall In a closed space  Feelings collided In a confused maze Mirroring the mess by a moist gaze The silence of the midnight  Has cornered around  I only hear my heartbeat  In the dim light, I’m downed A Hundred things to feel Thousand words to say Yet feeling speechless Till dawn of the first ray Suffering the paranoia  Has made my soul ill  The numbness of my heart I reckon could kill  In depths of my fears I dive through this grey  To see every bit of happiness  Quietly fade away. -Audrey. C

Tired of being numb  Living each passing day  Without a single clue  Say something, I’m giving up on you  It breaks my heart  You’re happy without me I can’t think of  What anything more worse could be Any place I see I wanna see you and me Torn by that thought I can’t set myself free  Caged in the darkness Where my demons race  Making me remember  Your ridges my fingers traced I’m here in the middle Shrinking in this state of mind Until I can’t feel anymore And I realise I’ve gone blind I lie on the ground  Staring subtly pale Onto ripped pages  Of my fairy tale  I sought to escape  Now that you’ve gone  But then I find you in melodies Of my favourite song  -Audrey. C

You gave me a reason  To believe in love  How would I know  It was bound to be naive Tell me how it feels  To live without me Do you even yearn In the size of that pea? I filled your cup It wasn’t enough Because I couldn’t fix That fissured rough All those Butterflies! With a blushed face  In a moment of haste They didn’t leave a trace The utmost care  Thinking it was rare! Clueless how it  Turned to a nightmare The feelings you uncared  You will never know And how harder was The very last blow The scars you gave  I will never justify Coz I loved you  Without asking any why An unrealistic fairy tale  In which I believed Where your world was me  And my world was you The only crippling thought Now I strive to shove Because we both perceived  A different idea of love  -Audrey. C